Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life”.–Mary Oliver
Why I Am On The Art Bus”–by my sixteen year old daughter
When I first heard about this journey I was so not sure if I wanted to go or not. I was thinking I would have just gotten out of school so why would I want to get back on a bus again the first week of summer? I know, so selfish and so not the right state of mind.
So then I began to pray and pray about it. I felt the Lord was calling me to go. There I would be the youngest on the bus with not much experience. However there is nothing that I love more than art, children, and Jesus Christ. The more I thought about it the more excited I began to get. This was my calling and the Lord was telling me to go.
Telling people about Christ and having an art studio on wheels is just so amazing. Watching people love on this bus just brings so much joy to my heart. The fact that we can bless others as well as the Lord with the bus is just so incredible.
I have learned lots of thing while along this journey. Number one, patience is key. Trust God no matter what happens. This brings me to one of my favorite verses…”Be cheerful no matter what happens.” 1 Thessalonians 5:16-19. Throughout the trip I was reminded that He has a plan for us and the bus and even if we were not able to see it, He can.
I can’t believe I ever doubted being apart of this team. This again is where I will thank God. He let me see that He wanted me to be apart of this and I thank Him again for giving me the ability to be able to listen and to obey Him. I was blessed with many new friendships on this trip that I wouldn’t trade for the world I thank God for that, also.
I can’t wait to see what the Lord has in store for it/us when we bring it back home. It can’t be anything but good. This has been one amazing journey and I am so glad I was called to hop on board!
Tag: Story
Pay Attention On The Road
Instructions for living a life.
Pay attention.
Be astonished.
Tell about it.
( Mary Oliver)
The Road
Pay attention to the road.
And the traffic.
The directions too.
You may get lost.
Wander off on a path, into the unknown.
Where Discovery waits.
To greet your heart.
Bust it wide open, into the light. Into the world. Into the bright.
Pay attention to the mom with the pain. The one on black top blank stare, hurting insides.
Pay attention to one on the platform, as the rat runs by.
The one with the words looking for a place to light, to land, to rest.
Pay attention to the the one wearing ink for clothing with sadness oozing out and over and into your arms.
Pay attention to the all, the one, the single soul with a hole to fill to make them whole.
And your words may touch and your presence may help. Might even heal. A bit. A place.
He did it well. He paid attention. To the woman at the well.
To the prostitute. To the leper.
Pay attention to even one, to the least.
Discover the joy.
In discovering the moment.
Connect with the one, the child, the mom, the man on his commute.
Let Mercy pierce your heart.And Love spill from your lips.
And stumble down that path.
The one marked well for you.
Here Comes A Story
Grab that story. Â
Yes that one.
The one that’s yours.
It’s got your name written all over it. Claim it. Cuddle it. Â Embrace it. Savor it.
It is yours after all. Â With all its pieces and parts. Â What is your story, morning glory? Â What are your beginnings, happy endings, messy middles. Your pauses to celebrate, your pauses to regenerate, and re-calibrate. Â To learn and gleen.
Did you dog-ear a page, here and there. And did you highlight and re-read. Did you you thank the One who gave you all.  Did you rest on the pages and say this here and that there are places of  Grace.  Places of Mercy.  Places of prayer, answered.
Are you seeing it all, the nuances and layers of love. The places in between blended in between the first and second acts, where He loves and loves some more. Â And sends His Savior, Son to take all the pain.
You know those parts of that story of yours. The painful parts that sting and hurt. Where the salty streams run down the cheek and bump-over the face craters, face mountains and valleys, then glide down the silhouette side, to round the chin corner. Like a stream finding its way, taking a slow winding path down pebbled speed bumps of  face. Bone, flesh, and pore drowned in salted streams.
A winged chapter glides by, you might miss it. A part and a piece fly by, grab hold, all kite-tailed happy, catch it and glide. Â Ride it and sail.
Once upon a time parts are just once, that’s singular, not plural, once to behold times. Just once to partake times, simply once in a blue moon. Â Once in that life-time. Not twice upon a time. Not there will be re-runs and do-overs and repeat performance times, once upon a time are once for you times.
Live your story well.
Run that story well.
Let His Son play a major role, a leading part. He is the star in your performance. Â His is the best story ever lived. He will walk it out and be in every chapter and verse. What Glory and Honor do we give the One who gave us all.
He the Author and Designer of these our lives, this our life, any and all that we have. Â Release it back to Him.
I give Him my story and thank Him for each part.
Taken off the wing of the One who sent it soaring in.
And sent back to to Him.
On wings to soar up and out, returning to Him, the Creator of All and any.
All and any that I ever claim as mine.
What a story, morning glory. The your story, my story, the our stories.
My once upon a time is just once upon a time and I celebrate all the times of this Life, this story is mine.
May this Sabbath be filled with thanking, and grabbing story, reigning it in and recommitting it all to Him.
Every good and perfect gift is from above—James 1:17
Its Like The Normandy Invasion But On A Larger Scale
This is Tuesdays story. And yes its Wednesday.
It rings.  Or vibrates.  Or more likely its muted and I see there is a call.  I reach for the lifeline in this life.  Its red phone, its  black box important. Its part of a multi-level communications plan that involves email, carrying  life plans delivering the latest top level security updates.
She is Patton. I am MacArthur. This is war. Â This is their lives.
Red pen, push pins, Â tools in the battleplans laid out in the heart and mind. Â Marking the critical, identifying the hour by hour movement of troops. And we strategize. Â We move pieces around the map of life. The map of their lives on this night.
We momma warriors plan out how to keep them safe on this night of their lives. Â Point A to Point B movement is critical to safety and well-being. Â Its a jungle out there, these roads of life. Â Danger lurks. Â Hearts and bodies, fragile with youth, must naviagate through decisions, confusion, temptation, and dark night.
She tells me a story and I tell her one too, this co-general momma planner.
Our boys, one half a step from manhood, are tall, grown in stature  and  raised in this community of believers. My daughter, one year behind these sons growing into womanhood.  These children linked up and doing life together. My son, her son such deep friendship carving out.  My daughter, linked in friendship.  These woven lives all threaded together in community of youth.  We have much to steward. The flowers and shrimp for the battle night are distraction wrapped in details of the pre-battle party.
She goes first. Â Words paint story of three year old school kids off to the pool after three year old kindegarten. Â And she, plunges down in and swims with the playmates. She caring for a child for these hours, whose life she has been a participant in from before the beginning. Â She comes to the surface, all momma cleansed, her make-up and hair no longer as before. Â And he stares, my wide-eyed one, blue saucers, blue orbs piercing her in numbing confusion. Â He, always this recorder of events, never missing one. Â And always, always speaking out in raw truth.
And after long pregnant pause of childhood wonder, he asks what he questioned all along. Â Are you still Taylor’s momma. Â Change so subtle, wet haired momma swimmer now could be someone else. Â Now could be for mine a stranger in this pool.
She giggles and I belly laugh. This story of over a decade ago blurs time and space and races back and delivers simpler. Â Drops her in my lap, simple. Â The easy to explain. Â Of course I’m Taylors momma.
Its my turn now. Â Story rises up all warm, like white flour biscuit oven ready. Â Story hot out seeking open mouth to savor her and enjoy how sweet, all honey-covered she is.
Do you remember?  Do you recall? The time my husband popped into your office eighteen years ago and you pointed him to Bethany Christian Services? His heart broken by my pain, and  his, and  ours. This battle with infertility. This pain of long wait for baby.He, seeking a God path out of the pain. Black tunnel life moments, the coming out seeing light.
And do you remember you were the one there on that day? He was a stranger. Â We were from somewhere else. Â This was before. Â Before we were drawn to this place. Â This was a beginning and you marked this community as one of Hope and Love.
And she, belly full of baby. Â Working at the church. Â She directing and moving push pin strategy plans of the heart, pointing toward hope, gently lead by the Spirit. Leading us to a place where family would grow out of and from. Â Where comfort and blessing and our adoption story would be birthed.
So story reminds of beginnings of friendships between boys. Â Hers on the way into her home in her warm ripe belly. Â She a directress of Hope and Encouragement. Ours, nine months later birthed through a precious life-giving birth mother who would lovingly release our cherished and prayed for one into my arms.
And now the warrior mothers plan and scheme of safe life travels on the night of Prom. Â Planning all Normandy Invasion, how to feed the troops, what tanks will carry these young people off into the night. How will they move from Point A to Point B to Point C. What happens when the enemy lurks on the highway, dark night covering their paths. How will they find their way home to us to the mothership? Dodging each obstacle in their path with skill, on their own in this night. Â Her son and my daughter, traveling companions on this jouney, paired up she with his best friend. Â And my middle off with another group.
This battle, this plan has dimension and depth that challenges a momma battle planner.But we have each other.
Whether mother or not.
We have community in life. Â Ones whose gifts come alongside and lend strength and comfort.
We have the other story-tellers who tell of their messy and their struggle. Â Who shine bright light on the you are not in this alone. Who tell of over-coming challenge, pain, grief, and disappointment. Â Who tell of times of rejoicing and flat out Joy. Â Who shout the Mercy times and the Grace times when just before they stumbled hard they were caught in Love. Â By community.
He wove this momma warrior back into my life. Â He weaves these threads of support in kind word tapestry. Â Ones who tell story of life where we see clearly He carried us. Â He fought that battle for us and with us. Â He prepared.
And we’ll release these young brave-hearts into this night and this life. Â Covered in His love, covered in prayer.
And the mothership will keep watch for safe return. Always longing for their return, from playdates in swimming pools and first prom nights.
And trips home from college.
This is not the end of the story. Â By no means is this the end of the story. Because its Wednesday’s story and Thursday, Â she will have one too.
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