How you multiply a batch of baked and make it fill up all the cracks
And holes of days throughout the three
when quietly we live across, beside
Angled on this street so quiet
How do we add enough to make up for lost words
A silence living in the quiet days and nights on quiet
Street, we chose, they chose
A peaceful avenue of still
Which spice can shake out love come down
And fill a heart up full to overflowing
And say I love my neighbor, golden
Its not the dozens from the oven’s
Its simply love of Christ poured out
And empty handed we could go and take
A batch of baked up
And when the days that roll around
and cause a heart to spill
make a list
of all that will be different
in the year
found when the page
has a way of making all things
a wish can roll right off the heart
as I stare at the house
yellow through my pane
that I would deliver
On all the days
Not simply one
To all the doors
There is a frosty blanket on those days in the South, when cotton was king and division cut hearts of men and women. A lifetime ago. No, many lifetimes and generations ago. It’s her past. And a beautiful crop has a million stories to tell, if she could talk. She’d tell of the pickers and their pain. She makes warm the world with all her woven comfort. We sleep with her, wear her. She has a history. She has a future. Plump and white and pregnant with possibility, she lays in wait for machines to gather her for market. White and winsome, covering the South and all the world. A paradox of war and pain and warmth and frosty chilled relations. She, caught between the strife of people, owning, working in her fields. Way down South on her land. The frost is gone, the chill is warmed. She breathes peace now, in her fields and looks like heaven, a sea of clouds.
And he is frosting on my life. I, plain vanilla cake and he, rich cream frosting spreads a blanket on my soul and on my very life. Last night I dreamt of Paris for our 25th, the next one, he of Italy. This life made sweeter, richer in the aging. And in the dreaming. We may sit in zipcode here and never leave but in our dreams. But love is whipped up nonetheless. No less sweeter in the staying. I am covered by his care, spread on me, a covering. And I hold his heavy on the back of my baked being. The complement of two, was planned in Garden Eden. And today its richer still. So much lovelier when two walk tandem out into the world.
He changes seasons when He speaks. He says and it is so. First frost speaks of what’s to come, the earth holds change, like brittle illusion on the field. It looks like snow. Yet when morning is broken it is gone. The frost melts away with the breaking of day. Like all illusion. It never lasts.
Joining Laura and Amber C. Haines at The Run a Muck for her concrete word prompts. There is a wonderful commuity of writers there, exploring abstract themes around the tangible things of this life.
Days 26, 27, 28, 29. This writer’s creative license to catch up on the series. The collective may be found here. Or by clicking the 31 Days 2012 tab at the top of this home page.
Joining Amber and others for her abstract writing on a concrete word. She is here, at The Run a Muck. Today is HORSE.
It is like a full head on train wreck of the senses.
Down in the deep it lays dormant but when it is given some air, water, fertilizer and freedom it bursts on the scene like a herd of wild horses.
There is power in a word. And we don’t always know how much.
Or we don’t know how much to give it, or allow it. Or release to it.
There is power in words and there is memory there too. You can let it out to graze and give it roaming privileges in the pasture, unharness the power, unleash it.
Let it rip, unbridled.
Loosen the girth. Loosen the grip.
I am young and leaning in the saddle, feeling the first passion of my youth. The challenges there in the ring, on the trail, in the stirrups, over the jumps.
Brushing the back and combing the mane, smelling the hay.
Learning to post and blistering up, bearing the pain on the boney knee, as a dancer on pointe feels it on the toes, and on balls, and in the ballet slipper. The pain of struggle. The passion mixed with pleasure.
The smells mingle in the air and they say that it is the longest memory or is it the strongest memory. The smells , they linger in the heart.
The smells of childhood and all the senses’ memories, mixed in a toxic remembering of joy and loss. Blended in a batch of story, the narrative of your living. Rooted in early youth. A launching pointing, a jumping off.
The dirt and dust and leather. The blends of animal and barn. The grasses and hays and helmet, black velvet hard a smell like no other with sweat of brow blended in and staying.
We take all the pieces of a life. Don’t we.
And ride off into the grasses greener, grasses leaner and carry them in the saddle with us. The horse that was an elusive dream. The one I never owned. A longing of my childhood. Spending hours at the barn. Longing for ownership. To name an animal, train it up. Call it mine.
And when my knight in shining armor rode in and swept me up, they came back again, the horses.
And later too, in a mid-stream season of intersecting with the hooved loves of my life.
And even just a few nights ago, they came racing back, trotting back in.
A blaze of happy memory. The wild ponies on the coast of my youth. The stories. A thread between the life of an old salty captain who crossed my path and smiled his toothless grin as he shared with me a co-mingling of memory. Captain Froggy, the Shrimp Boat Captain and I. And the horses.
The wild ponies of the banks were a piece of me and a piece of him.
And these threads that run through a life, they can keep running if you watch carefully.
This thread of memory, the horse, of course.
The earliest memory of passion for getting on the back and being free, happy, brave and scared all together. Of breathing smells and waving manes. Of feeling strong and feeling the hearts beating in tandem, human and horse. Horse and human. Rocking in the leather, galloping through at break neck speed, taking a jump.
The rocking in the saddle, like a baby in the sea of uterine waves. Rocking. Like the baby in the cradle lulled to sleep by the slow pitch to and fro.
The holding on, steering the bit, to the left to the right in the ring and beyond. Guiding in love. And it was always the eyes. The deep piercing orbs that pierce the heart and poke into the soul.
A word can wield a lot of power.
And we take all the parts and pieces and they are living metaphors. Or are they life itself. Following the thread, woven and weaved. Seeing the messy and the missed, the beauty and the treasure. In the all.