Small Important Things

 1 Peter 3:8-12- Summing up: Be agreeable, be sympathetic, be loving, be compassionate, be humble.  That goes for all of you, no exceptions  No retaliation.  No sharp-tongued sarcasm.  Instead, bless- that’s your job, to bless.  You’ll be a blessing and also get a blessing.  Whoever wants to embrace life and see the day fill up with good, Here’s what you do:  Say nothing evil or hurtful;  Snub evil and cultivate good; run after peace for all you’re worth.

Feet, bare.  Feet, tender hit sand then shell, beach walking on this glorious day. This Easter Monday day all wrapped in bluesky canopy. Canyons of solitude soak in the soul.  Calm pierces gentle this time of solace and quiet therapy.

Registering the hot, the hard, the sharp, the rough.  Tender feet.  TENDER.  And my thoughts do a mind drift, off untethered on a mile long stretch of beach.  Drift over sand dune, dip and dive over windswept island, small with welcome written all over her.  Alone in this beauty.  Alone as I catch up to myself , and with myself.

And I step on a small beach twig.  There among the sharpest of broken shell shards lie twigs that break my stride with pain.

And I wonder how so often the smallest and most unexpected things that come my way bear the biggest pain.

How a word or phrase or look can rob joy and break beautiful in half.  Shatter the happy into broken. Stain the laughter with tears.  How does the sensitivity to all make sensitivity itself a vehicle for pain.

In the tender places of the heart, is tough the opposite of tender.

Does ignore shield the soft places of the insides from hurt.

Will vulnerable always catch the unintended slight, not sent out by design to harm or wound.

I walk.  I ponder.  I wrestle.

Shrimpers nets  drag the water for the one intended goal of copious amounts of glorious shrimp,  but the unintended fills the nets as well.  The unintended get caught in the nets and mingle with the bounty.  Litter the boat deck ,waiting to be returned to the sea as waste and refuse.  Weighing down the fragile netting are unwanted sea treasures.  The nets become receptacles of all.  Pick through save.  Pick through discard. The trash takes up room intended for treasure.

David writes in Psalm 139, “God, investigate my life; get all the facts firsthand.  I’m an open book to you; even from a distance you know what I’m thinking.  You know when I leave and when I get back; I’m never out of your sight.   You know everything I’m going to say before I start the first sentence. I look behind me and you’re there, then up ahead and you’re there, too- your reassuring presence, coming and going.  This is too much, too wonderful– I can’t take it all in!”

And David continues in Psalm 139, “Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother’s womb.  I thank you, High-God you’re breathtaking!  Body and soul, I am marvelously made!  I worship in adoration–what a creation!”

“Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you.   The days of of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day.”

The nets take it all in and release that which has no value, which will burden the nets with added weight.  The weight  which rips and tears at the fabric, requiring stitching sewing and repairing before being let out again.

Repairing the damage.  Stitching the holes, the holes in the receiver  of all in a sea of life. The Blessings and that which needs throwing back.  That which requires casting aside and over and away.

And I know that one small word can bring blessing and encouragement. One small phrase can build up, restore hope, lead to healing.

And one word can cut and bruise and sting.

How I have wounded and stung with a glance my eyes.  How quickly words have shot out without carrying gentle and kind and tender with them.

I wince at the moments of calluous and misspoken moments.  Where opportunity to bless and encourage were missed.

Where I was the twig.  Where I did not run after peace.  Where I was the broken shard of shell hurting the heel of a brother or sister in Christ,  or child, or husband, or stranger or friend.

I have been the stinging word deliverer.  I have been the messenger of hurt.  I have delivered words that lead to tears.

The tender and sensitive that God wove in me have slept and remained idle while I placed hurt at the threshold of another life.  Intended , unintended delivered nonetheless.  My small has been their large.  My flippant has been their signficant.

New mercy mornings bring His Grace, His Mercy, His Love and new found energy to run after peace.

And the nets go out.  The words go out.  The hearts go out.

Return with abundance by His hand. Fill and heal. Tender mercies new each day. Give Grace and tenderness to gently deliver to all we  touch in our always wonderful sometimes messy often tender-hearted lives.

Running hard after the Peace.

Sweet Forgiveness

The prayer cottage.

A place to go and sit before the Lord in prayer and supplication. Small and welcoming.

But in this season the prayer cottage for this sinful soul, is one of the heart. My heart.

And this dwelling place needs dusting off.

Spring cleaning is needed in this place.

The get out the rubber gloves, the bucket of cleaning supplies, the harsh abrasive cleaning products and start with the baseboards kind.  A fresh coat of white paint and crisp linen curtains, exteriors would make this little prayer cottage look clean and white and prepared for prayer.Externals.  Superficial tending to will allow her to appear to be dressed in her Sunday best.  Ready for visitors.  Those in need of what she offers.

Freshly planted window boxes dripping with color, vibrant and showy take the eye off the truth, place it squarely on the exterior and the shell, the mask. The outer.

But  changing  externals does just that.  It doesn’t get down to the muck and the dirt, the soiled and the sin.  When what needs changing is a rewiring, a change in the fundamentals, the foundation.  The beating heart that pumps the blood.  The place of life. And all of lifes joy and pain.

Just as the Easter finery and freshly polished nails  can cover what lies within.

These heart places which need to be released of unforgiveness, anger, bitterness, distrust, disappointment need cleansing.  They need to be washed in the blood.  A paradox.  Cleaned by blood.  White by blood. The envy, jealousy, scraped off the walls of the heart and dumped in the trash, put on the curb, and carried off.  For good.

These dirty corners here in the dwelling place of the soul, the hearts yuck ,need to come clean. Room inspection is required, the looking under and over and around for all that is ugly and unpleasing to the One who made me.

We huddle over His word and with furrowed brow wrestle with forgiveness, the word.  The meaning.  God’s description and desire for us in this realm. God’s heart.  We process the weight of its importance to Him. We discuss  the kind thats all out, no holes barred.  The no holding on to any of it.  The surgically removing every cell of this cancer.  And the gift that comes with walking it out, forgiveness. Put words on what it bears and brings to the abundant life.

Hundreds of years of life huddle over the word, in one room in one house on one night. Many of us contributing a  half century or more of life to the count.

And its still there, the weight of forgiveness and unforgiveness.  And we still seek His Grace and His Mercy. We still want to receive it and offer it.  Offer it, give it–grant it.

I still need to jump off and jump in. I need Hope as a life jacket, and Grace as a buoy marking my way on this sea. And Mercy charting the maps around the rocks and the sandbars. I want nothing in the way of this path to the cross.

“The Cross was the place where God and sinful man merged with a tremendous collision and where the way to life was opened.  But all the cost and pain of the collision was absorbed by the heart of God.” — Oswald Chamber, “My Utmost For His Highest”

Lord, blow sweet and gentle winds of forgiveness into the sails of this ship. And take me into the pitch and toss of seas safely to the harbor of your Love and Grace.

Merciful hands of God, Merciful touch of God, Abundant Life-Giver God.

I thank you for your Cross.


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