All the moments of joy, they can sneak up on a girl. I rest in the thankfulness of the moment. But not for long. For these moments of Joy, they propel me forward infusing new life, new hope, in all the new mercies.
Yes, these moments of joy can sneak up when she least expects it.
Giving a desire to go and spread and carry and send it out. To give something away. Something of the gift.
These moments come when they are most needed. Like new skin, new flesh springing from a place of fresh healing. Where new sensations of tender feeling are born.
And the world bears much new in this season. My heart would be wise to have eyes to see it. To wipe the foggy lense of despair and seek the tucked away offerings of life, and love and redemption in the folds of the new skin.
He did say He was doing that. Making all things new.
And old can look new to the eyes that can see, really see. See through and around with hope.
First born visits and walks around this home filled with light and life, by grace, singing. He is singing constantly. It sounds new and joyful. But as I visit the mental records of my memory, I think he always did sing.
I wasn’t always listening.
I think I surprised her as she stood stocking the shelf. Life is fragile and I had just come from a funeral. The sun shining and a full life celebrated. And we all long for those second chances. Mercifully I was given one. I told her I had woken in the night. That I felt a gentle nudge to pray for her. And I told her I should have offered to the other day. She is a stranger. I am a stranger. We are wrapped in community by hearts, by hurting, and by need.
And she told me why I may have felt she was hurting and yes thank you for praying for me.
I was surprised by the joy of her smile. She thanked me and thanked me. But in the giving, I was left walking ten feet above the earth. Buoyed by her tender gratitude. And I may have a new friend in this life. She smiled a smile that is blazed and branded on my soul. From her place of tangled worry and stress. She smiled and thanked.
Its as if the icy tundra, the frozen reeling earth which grieves is melting. The sorrow slowly melting from the cold. And the days, the few days between us and His birth are a healing balm of warmth.
The pain and grief redeemed by new birth. And all that He brings as Light of the World, shining bright in cold darkness is warming the souls of men.
In these days, He brings Comfort and Joy. He is comfort and joy.
He sits across the table wrapped in budding new and I see what warmth and care of another can do to the heart of man.
How the smile breaks so wide it wants to leave the face. How the hands wrap around gentle with comfort and joy.
My mommas heart is surprised. It is beautiful living breathing joy. And it is new. This is redemption from the piles of ash, and prayer has fueled this fire of burning joy. Its fragrant beauty drifts my way and I inhale. Billowing joy.
We dropped a gift of gold in a glass of liquid last night. For the girl who has the birthday rocking up on the heels of Christmas. She looked down into the sparkling water and saw a gift, she knew it had been mine. I hoped that in a passing from mother to child there would be sweet surprise, in the offering. In the receiving. And in the receiving she smiled. But I realized the joy was mine…in giving of something I treasured.
Releasing to another. There is more joy in the offering than in the receiving.
I think I would do well to give it all away for the joy in the release. And I would be wiser than those three wise men to look to Him for all comfort and joy.
Listen, do you hear the hymns of praise. Can you hear the songs up in the heavenlies. A song of redemption breaking through the clouds, the icy pain melted by a baby born in the bleak mid-winter?
May each of you find comfort and joy in the receiving of His son. And may you seek and see and find the elements of surprise, the wonders of His love in the all around you in the beautiful days leading up to Christmas.
Alleluia Anyway Always.